Feeling sick...

damn been sick for days.. dun seem to be recovering..physically sick plus mentally sick..There r times i really wished to be alone.. wonder if anyone understands.. im someone who loves privacy.. doesnt means im someone who cheats tts y i wan privacy.. but it all boils down to one word *TRUST*.. how's the feeling like doing ur things and there is always a pair of eyes staring n watching ur every moves and everything u say? certainly i dun like tt feeling.. its kinda annoying.. be it ur loved one or ur fren.. all of us human deserves some decent privacy to ourself..there's just so much for u to understand me.. love aint all about promises but also how well u could keep urs.. i've been listening to ur promises ur swears.. yet its been repeatedly disappointing.. still i chose to believe..till this point.. im feeling kinda numb.. with u or without u.. doesnt make much of a difference anymore.. sometimes i feel u care too much.. yet sometimes i feel u dun even care.. Often hurting in various ways u dint realised. til the day i blew up den u know..RMB this guys.. girls takes note of the tiniest detail in a relationship and keeps them deep in their heart.. weighing the pros and cons and finally making a decision.. its nt a one time thing.. even when u forget to take water to me when i coughing like im dying.. i rmb.. even when u dint come back str8 when u know i wanted u to.. i rmb.. all kept in my heart.. and now im finally weighing...