Yummy MA La steamboat

SEE!!! MY CAREBEAR! BONG N TOOT BUY FOR ME DE!!! OMG!

yay my birthday week is finally over.. so sad.. hahas.. those who gave me most presents r bong n toot.. they bought me a E63 handphone, they accompanied me at my bbq.. thou none of my bros came except my dear devin haha.. iwas quite jam and happy la.. celebrated with janice tgt too.. so fun all of us.. rode our bicycles and yes.. almost fell down too... today we went to meet potato and sara with hao n bong to eat ma la huo guo.. wahh power str8 after eating me hao n bong went to lao sai.. its all oil lor..but nice la.. haha ty bong for treating me.. hehe.. okies above r some photos taken wen toot brought me to do my pedicure and manicure at wax in the city before my birthday.. yippiees.. its stil nice til now lor..

Its enuff!

Seriously had enuff of all the rubbish u can give me... always making me believe and wait for nothing.. makes me feel like a fool.. this will be the last tym im going to shed any tear for someone... fcking worthless.. after so many chances so many of my tears wasted.. yet nothing has changed..forget it.. im not wasting my time any further.. how useless can one person get .. even to his loved one?.. i really wonder...it just happened earlier on.. and wen i soften down n gave another chance.. it happened again.. wth...

YSL ROSE, RACHEL, OLIVE! SEE ME ON STREET BE CAREFUL

NABEH .... i fuckin long dint feel so angry liao.. bloody hell went thru the whole fuckin interview with Bobbi brown and waitin for my training.. Yet those bitches at YSL commented so badly on me.. wad the fuck i did to them? despite my bad tempers my bad attitudes and my tattoos.. i have never protrayed any signs of gangsterism on them.. Yet! Jasmine from bobbi brown was told i had sooooo much tattoos tt even my clothes cant hide.. and i have alot of weird frens visiting the counters everytime???? wad the fuck la... wad everytime?? i was told once nt to hav frens visiting the counters.. AND I DID STOPPED! wad fuckin everytime sia.. kanina... their mouths ought to be taught a lesson! COME ON girls!!! THOSE WHO R UNHAPPY WITH YSL PLEASE GO TO TAKASHIMAYA YSL COUNTER! FUCK TT ROSE! BLOODY UGLY MACIK! please make sure u guys complain about how bad their service is.. god damn it.... i kept my tempers down to all their nonsense.. and helped them in as many way as i can.. and yet this is wad i got from them...Since they think im one cao ah lian rite.. nvm.. now i will show them....

ii see no future

Do u know how sick i was? no i dun tink he does.. he tot it was jus normal fever.. but im not feeling pain? somehow i duno how to feel.. it seems he's taking me for granted? or i actually need more than wad he can give me? i guess he cant give me wad i need.. yet someone out there will always give it to me.. no matter wad happens.. they'll never leave me in the lurch.. shower me with much care and concerns.. now even when i see him.. i dun feel anything.. i just feel wasted.. i dunno how to describe.. but those 8 mths tgt seems like its just for living the days... i wan someone who gives me a future i look forward to.. nt someone who makes me fear our future.. i duno how its gonna turn out to be for me n him next time.. now even my mum thinks tt he's useless.. often forgetting the things he promised to give me or her..change? i dun think so.. i've seen ppl who really changed for me.. but i cant see this time.. i duno how to talk to him.. cos i know he's only gonna misunderstand me further... really at a lost to wad i can do... y cant i have a happy birthday?

Feeling sick...

damn been sick for days.. dun seem to be recovering..physically sick plus mentally sick..There r times i really wished to be alone.. wonder if anyone understands.. im someone who loves privacy.. doesnt means im someone who cheats tts y i wan privacy.. but it all boils down to one word *TRUST*.. how's the feeling like doing ur things and there is always a pair of eyes staring n watching ur every moves and everything u say? certainly i dun like tt feeling.. its kinda annoying.. be it ur loved one or ur fren.. all of us human deserves some decent privacy to ourself..there's just so much for u to understand me.. love aint all about promises but also how well u could keep urs.. i've been listening to ur promises ur swears.. yet its been repeatedly disappointing.. still i chose to believe..till this point.. im feeling kinda numb.. with u or without u.. doesnt make much of a difference anymore.. sometimes i feel u care too much.. yet sometimes i feel u dun even care.. Often hurting in various ways u dint realised. til the day i blew up den u know..RMB this guys.. girls takes note of the tiniest detail in a relationship and keeps them deep in their heart.. weighing the pros and cons and finally making a decision.. its nt a one time thing.. even when u forget to take water to me when i coughing like im dying.. i rmb.. even when u dint come back str8 when u know i wanted u to.. i rmb.. all kept in my heart.. and now im finally weighing...

Dunno how to feel?

Its just so tiring .. i duno y.. my daily routine? my love life?.. i duno.. its been so long since anyone else stepped into my life and bring me the smiles and laughters i always nvr failed to experience... but 8 mths ago.. it seems to have stopped... those surprises.. those happiness.. everything has somehow changed.. wad had been promised was broken again and again.. how much more tolerant can i be? somethings i know was hidden from me in fear i'll get angry... but hey.. i know wad u're doing n thinkin.. im a girl and i have strong intuitions u'd nvr imagined.. Feeling like a caged bird and someone who's just been sent down to life live and finish life.. its like a duty... coming hm to slp.. the need to think for someone. the need to entertain.. to care to listen and to understand.. den to work... no friends other den bong n toot.. no brothers which i can even tok to and confide to... wad else is left in life for me to do? r all relationships gonna end up this way? now these 2 days without him ard.. im like gettin used to being alone again... im sick of everything..

sooooo sadddddd

aww fck... i got suspended from maple for 3days... use illegal program... kanina..... oredi lvl 120 liaos.... oredi kill the griffy and the manor liao..... GOING TO PRESS THE FCKING 4th JOB INSTRUCTOR TO BE A BISHOP!!!!!! den tio suspend!!!! fcking maple...hais... sian ahhhhhhhhhh............duno wad im gonna do for these 3 days.. wasted my twin coupon and my double exp.... ccb..si beh suay!!!!

MY NEXT TARGETS!!!!

i wanna get this onmy thigh!!!


This i wan on my tummy!!!



And this? on my left arm! wakakaka


2mths later ahjarn perm will be back! cant wait!

Sak Yants