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Wee ~ im starting work tmr at benefit as a brow artist! yay.. finally im working.. hurhurs.. wasted so much time lazing around at home waitin for that stupid bobbi brown..

CB bong de stupid finger spoil my pic


The ratty cow and the stupid bong



At white sands mac =x




Bong calls me ratty cow





Bong trying to act DRAWER =x






The ratty cow with the Irritating Bong

Yet another quarrell.. oh man.. give me a break god..

at least i still have my irritatiin bong bong to make me happy and to accompany me..

At a loss for words..

Why did he have to make it happen again? it took me quite awhile to decide not to cry again.. yet he has to make me angry.. angry till i feel like killing someone..ii did try to forget the time when he knew i was sad.. when he was right there beside me.. yet he dint console me.. left me to play maple alone and yet havin the guts to get angry cos im talkin to someone..does he understand the meaning of living tgt as a couple? its not just about sharing bed.. its also about sharing thoughts.. understanding and caring for each other..yet he dint realised the fact that when i m stressed when im sad.. i need a quiet shoulder to lean on.. all he thinks is about himself.. when i cry all he does is press me for an answer.. keeps thinkin its him im blaming for my tears.. he just cant think.. cant think about the events that happened..there's just so many chances i gave to him but he dint cherish.. yet again and again i bow down to his tears to his apologies.. drowning myself in misery in agony...there isnt a perfect relationship.. but cant there be at least some love thats nt selfish..he claims that im treating him cold for a long time.. yes.. i did.. i admit it wasnt the same as b4 anymore.. alot has changed.. his attitude his lies.. his empty promises his negligence has made me love him lesser and lesser.. has he realised the reason? behind every quarrell there're words i said to make him realised that every time i cried there's a meaning.. every tears i dropped i've set my mind to somethings.. does he know? i doubt so..He's nt the first to rush to my aid.. nt the first to stop my tears.. i always remember how tt someone treasures my laughters my tears.. calls me his princess and treats me like his queen.. yet now im in someone elses arms regretting all the wrongs i did before.. trying to repent trying to change in someone elses love.. but wasnt in the least appreciated..so ironic..the longest to stay on in my heart eversince that someone.. yet failed to appreciate all that im doing and all that i have changed..i may nt be the perfect gf.. but to that someone i was his world.. loving me as long as he could.. forgiving me as many times as he could.. i swear i changed, i finally realised the importance of love and trust..now i just wished i could turn back time.. to be the princess i once was.. not an evil queen i now am..

=( when will i return to the place i belong to?

my adorable rainbow~


Lazing on bed.. >.<

my minnie mouse ribbon =)

Nerdy moo =p

BOring BOring~

such a boring saturday ~ mummy was admitted into hospital 3 days ago.. colon diverticulosis=.=.. so rare yet she got it.. infected colon.. poor mummy.. miss having her around at hme..Hais.. now all the housework i have to do.. kns.. lols.. now everyday i just have to go hospital visit her.. haven got a job yet.. went for shu uemura's interview the day b4.. doesnt seems successful to me.. was told my hair color too light.. fringe too messy.. rings too many.. necklace too fanciful.. nails too fanciful... bloody hell... wonder y they call it make up ARTIST... wen ppl trying to hide the artistic side of themselves... arghhs.. shit them.. hope my tries for other companies will be successful..someone's birthday is reachin.. and i dun even know how to celebrate.. wad a lousy gf i am.. damn...